Life is crying and wants me back so let me kill it with kindness and smile back at it. 'Smile' life is too short

I smile
why?
Life is too short
death is sharpening its clause
The curtains are being drawn 
still I smile
why?
Him
he
that’s why?
Death took what was mine
I cried
why?
No
him
no
he
no we
no us

Just
me

That’s why?
Now once again
I smile?
Stop questioning
the answer
is right before you
him
he
we
us

let me smile at life
for life is crying for me