Sunday 14 September 2014

Sometimes your heart holds on to things your mind wants to throw away so you find that no matter what you do, you always seem to remember despite you not wanting to 'I Don't Remember, But I Do'

I don't remember that I love you
I don't remember that I want you
I don't remember that I need you
I don't remember writing the love letters you have
I don't remember my heart skipping a beat at the sound of your voice
I don't remember missing you every second of the day
I don't remember when I love you is all I want to say
I think we played a game...
And I think I lost 
I think that is why I am faced with the bills and struggling to pay the cost
I don't remember your beautiful face 
I don't remember your mesmerizing eyes 
I don't remember when you became my hobby
I don't remember your voice 
I don't remember when we first spoke 
I don't know if you exist 
Because... 
I don't remember us 
Did we ever exist?
The one thing you said might remember.
I have forgotten.
I don’t remember how you made me feel
I don’t remember your touch
I don’t remember anything given by us two
I don’t remember our history
Without any history there cannot be present or future
I don’t remember the messages
I don’t remember those all night chats
I can’t access them even if I tried
I don’t remember my password
I don’t remember my name being tattooed on your arm
I don’t remember having a tattoo of you
I don’t remember you laughing
I don’t remember you crying
I am not sure if I know you sleeping
I don’t remember your comfort
I don’t remember the arguments
I don’t remember the break-ups
I don’t remember your birthday
I don’t remember what love is
I can’t remember if I ever knew what it truly meant
I don’t remember when you said anything
I don’t remember your support
I don’t remember if or when you put me down
I don’t remember if the heart I control ever broke
I can’t remember telling you I will forever remember
I am the brain inside the person outside.
If all I don’t remember has happened
I don’t think I was call upon during this time
But, I can remember
I remember the night you asked me to be yours
I remember your kiss
I remember what love is
I remember your beautiful face
I remember your mesmerizing eyes
I remember when I first saw you
I remember how I felt
I remember your last words to me before all of this
I remember the dreams we shared
I remember the cuts that were made
I remember my name on your arm
Never will I forget your sweet words
I don’t need to remember I miss you
Because I can simply feel it
I remember where you were on our big night
The sound of our song is ever so melodious inside me
I remember your first words in my ear
I remember when we had to hide
I remember when we touched
I remember your hands through my hair
I remember your head on my lap
I remember the way I cried
I remember when you cried
I remember the dreams
I remember our arguments
I remember break-ups
I remember two hours
I remember three hours
I remember waiting for you to come down
I remember the sunset
I remember our first valentine’s day
I remember the tenderness of your voice
I remember gazing in to your eyes for hours
I remember every hug
I remember every heart beat
I remember every breath
I remember every footstep
I remember because I am the heart

I was in control of it all

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