I wear "My battle" scars on my sleeves and lead my life with transparency.

Of your shit I was bound to tire

My heart

A victim, of a murder for hire

 

You I should despise

But loving will be my demise. 

Since you refuse to pick on someone your own size

And I’m tired of self-compromise 

My battleships are now ready to fight

 

When you talk about me 

Tell them it was

My inner beauty you stole

Tell them it was thanks to you that

My tanks are on high patrol 

Tell them that to destroy me

Has always been your goal 

 

And in turn 

I will tell them 

how you destroyed the girl I used to be.

I’ll give them a step by step guide

of why for you I will no longer fight.

I’ll tell them 

You lived to see the day 

When I would no longer be able to handle life’s bite

 

You hate me and that’s alright

My light still burns bright

 

Now that its all said and done

Now that you have had too much fun 

Now that I’ve taken your smoking gun 

Now that it’s all been over come 

 

And just like that one by one 

It’s now from me you turn and run.

Your smoking gun…

Pop.

Pop. 

 

Now to our story I’m adding a full stop.

 

 

 

 

 

You win some and lose some. the end of one chapter is only the beginning of another. Never give up the next chapter could be your 'Happily Ever After'

A new chapter. 

A soon to be happily ever after.

A future, full of nothing but happiness and laughter.

A dream.

A reality.

A beautiful actuality

Where

a house becomes a home

And one needn’t worry about being alone 

But for now…

Think of you 

Is all I can do.

The way I feel, you’re still yet to have a clue

Your voice through the phone 

Defeats the feeling

alone 

You’ve the ability to make this hole feel like home 

Under the light of tonight’s full moon

my feelings for you, forever honest and true
Baby I promise, I’ll see you soon 

It was exactly a month ago today that I was prepared to take a bullet to help a criminal to protect those around him from being destroyed by the ripple effect of his case going to trial and him possibly ending up behind bars. But, that was a month ago, since then I have grown to realise that he is a liar; and someone who deceives the trust of those who try to help them deserves to be left to stand 'Alone' in all their battles against life.

He’s a liar 

Now alone can burn 

In life’s raging inferno 

Alone he will fall 

on that I place my word 

And like the animal he is 

Locked up should be

He decided to risk it all 

Ladies and gents he pushed himself

so watch him fall

before the ground he hits 

And his thoughts colliding with the floor

We witness 

of the darkness in life

He has ownership

by his hands 

two lay unstable

In the dreaded place, we know as hospital

a disservice to society 

he deserves the maximum penalty 

It cannot be said enough, our criminal justice system (CJS) is a mess. It wrongfully convicts and accuses. They have a special place waiting for them in hell that will be 'The sentence' they receive

Ready, aim, shoot
They've a plan to sentence and slaughter
crosshead's on you.

Together we watch them recharge
on the way to the court room
ready to hand you the charge

Punishment for a minor offence
in front of you I stand
I'll take the bullet in your defence

And when they're done with their guns
they'll use their limbs for fun

beating a man when he's down
love the way that sounds

then with your case
staring you in the face
they dream, you'll be transfered to the dark place

Human Rights are taken away with a smile
when you stand helplessly
awaiting trial

though innocent, even I've been crucified
now I'm serving time
in the prison cell of life
thanks to their god-awful lies

Once gunned down
only I'll wear my tears for you- my gown
as...
'ashes to ashes'
you're lowered into the ground.

Pain is part of life, and if strong enough through the pain we fight. Sometimes we need to look at life as though dead and sometimes we need to view hate as if we are love because that, we are. Love is within us. So though declare previously I did not, I'm now offering my 'Testimony' in this court of life.

Don’t hate me 

But I did it to hurt you 

I hated her and you knew

you’ve always lived for the thrill

never came clean 

just waited for the news to spill

well, this is my testimony to you

I did it because you hate him and that I knew 

But when non-existent was your respect for me 

My pain I wanted you to feel rather than my tears see

I guess I fell for someone you could never be

A month later, as she lays in my place 

I give you space 

And let my mind race 

Picking at my wounds and further causing myself pain

But I love you 

And there is nothing for you 

I wouldn’t do

To see you smile 

My happiness I chose to exile

for your love I once fought 

But now, it’s for your freedom and possible life with her I fight

I just hope that against you she doesn’t take the stand,

Testify

Because then she will be on the wrong side of my fight 

So close we were 

The finish line was in sight 

But you let go and that’s fine 

Never once did I ask…

Why me?

or

Why now?

I will continue to be your soldier 

I will continue to put my life on the line 

In hope for a change 

Don’t you worry I can handle the pain

I'll be fine promise babe

We have all had a moment where we do something without thinking twice, we dive in before we test the waters if you like and sometimes it feels unreal almost like a 'Late Night Dream', you know the one; the dream that feels like you are living only to wake up in the middle of it all; puzzled.

Late night dreaming 

About poisonous passion

And a touch enough 

to pierce the surface of the skin

Words that once said,

Linger, waiting to be remembered 

or

said again

Eyes softer than pillows

And a voice enough

to render a being unconscious 

And recuperate it again

A touch that can wake a wild fire 

And blow out the flame 

At the same time 

a breath, like a gust of wind on a winters morning

Or a light breeze on a mid-Summers day

A twilight 

As time leans closer and closer into the dark of night 

A door weak enough to let something in 

But behind it, a presence that once felt makes one never want to leave again

A beautiful trap

holding in the palm of its frail hand the tamest wild waters 

Be wary of that late night dream, 

where all, is anything but what it seems 

A liar responds to confrontation with the question "How Did I Lie" answer is simple you opened your mouth and...

I love you

I’ll never hurt you

My one and only 

Forever 

You’re the only one I see 

Live with me 

Stay the night 

Please don’t leave 

Hold my hand 

Hug me 

Be mine 

meet the family 

With you I see a future 

My world 

Amazing 

Perfect 

Beautiful 

She’s just a friend 

Nothing I would rather do than be here with you 

Home 

The laughs 

The smiles 

The pictures

The moments 

The memories 

Its not what it seems 

You didn’t even see anything 

What shit timing

Shall I continue?